caitlyn anne

feeling good

Its funny how the smallest things make you realize the biggest things. Its time to move on and forget it. cheers to diplomas and finally turning 18, on to bigger and brighter things. Keeping life interesting and adventurous in order to keep this world turnin, its the only way to do it.

7th period writing on film class sprawled out in GV park today, we each had to write a letter to ourselves. One that our teacher would later, months from now, mail to us wherever it is that we end up. I wrote about senior year and what a random mess it has been. some good memories, weird ones of course and then things I could go the rest of my life never having to think about or deal with again. It is what it is and we cant go back, and if given the choice I doubt I would want to. It occurred to me sitting in the grass out there watching everyone speckled across the field how ridiculous we all were. There were a group of kids all circled together after our teacher told us to isolate ourselves who just sat and tanned and played catch, there were some kids climbing trees and some people asleep under the sun, and then a few others like myself who figured they would just get the assignment over with and write. Not that I really got anywhere with it. Its so obvious at creek especially how we all just live our lives for everyone around us, rather than just living for ourselves. Thats not to say were out at soup kitchens on Saturday nights… we dress up and spend way too much time getting ready to impress each other when frankly who cares? Im not saying I dont try sometimes, but its actually sad how many people at creek and anywhere for that matter only look at themselves through a mirror. Only caring about what others think instead of figuring out what they can do to make themselves happy.